feeling made

that feeling of my hand on my wife’s belly

just above the pubic

where we have had sex before

and the terror that there is a child in there

come from two cells

and I wonder what the child thinks

when I place my cold hand there

or when we have sex

it frightens me to think

that she remembers any intimate act

and I wonder if my parents also did the same

and if all of us have experienced being made more than once

experienced when we were made while we were being made

as we were being made