diary entry

BOM Journal:


Elder Benson said, according to Brother Hunter, that if I want to be prepared for the Second Coming, then I need to understand the Book of Helaman; there’s no way around it. But my question is whether or not I will be alive at that time. And then a thought occured to me: even if I am dead, won’t I still need to understand the Book of Helaman. I think many of us are under the notion that when we die there is no longer any need to prepare for the Second Coming of Christ. This can’t be true. Won’t I still go on and say prayers to my Father in Heaven in the afterlife? Won’t I still live a Christ-centered life? Won’t I still teach the gospel. Alma teaches in Alma 34:34 that “that same spirit which doth possess your bodies at the time that ye go out of this life, that same spirit will have power to possess your body in that eternal world.” Why would I be under the impression that I am going to be that same spirit, but not be actually doing the same things. And if I am doing the sames things, assuming that the things which I am doing are good things that are leading my closer to Christ, then why wouldn’t I be improving and drawing closer to Christ as I did things that brought me closer to Christ. I know that “this time is the time for men to prepare to meet God,” and that “when the night cometh no labor can be performed,” but can’t I do anything in the afterlife? Isn’t there something that I am doing? And, again, I cannot be acting without that action having any effect on me. Furthermore, if Jacob compares life to a dream and we compare death to sleeping, then when are we ever actually awake. Perhaps I am approaching something more of a question rather than an answer, something more of an exploration of truth rather than a declaration of truth, which exploring/pondering/questioning/thinking, as we learn from Joseph Smith and the Sacred Grove, has it’s own virtues.